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I am in the middle of crisis right now, so I'm sure I'm being affected by this. My grandfather died over the weekend. I was already hypomanic a week before that. It had seemed that it was over with by Friday because I was in a remarkably down mood for that whole day and night. He died on Saturday. I have felt so many alternating feelings since then, I don't know if him dying could have re-triggered more mania feelings or if this is grief like I've never experienced before, or what. I couldn't reach the doc Monday and slept almost all of yesterday's business hours, so he doesn't know what's going on with me yet. I'm flipping moods like a fish out of water. From crying to feeling like I'm climbing out of my skin to utter calm and then back again. But the real question is is it abnormal to have a manic episode the first week of December (which the doc did nothing about, so I didn't call last week when it started again) and then to have another one so soon? When I've been pretty much only on the depressed side of things for a full year previous? And did I go back into hypomanic state again? Is that likely from stress? I know we aren't docs but I'm mostly wanting to know if any behavior like this has happened to others and if so, how did you manage it?
I'm sorry, I'm kind of rambly...I am feeling hyper and haven't been to sleep all night. My thoughts are all scattered.
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