Hi Immental.... thanks for posting. I'm sorry you are struggling with a CPS investigation but like RealFDeal said, I hope you can stick it out. These are not easy things to cope with but then it sounds like you have been struggling a while. I'm really glad you have your husband and son as hooks - we all need something or someone to focus on. I understand your frustration that you are not getting better, but I think you are wise to not worry about returning to work. I'm sure you are better off without that extra anxiety. By the way, you are not the only one who does not understand themself . I'm sorry I don't have any suggestions for you at the moment, except to encourage you to be patient with yourself. This may sound corny, but I don't suppose you could try some yoga? I find the deep breathing settles me sometimes, and the gentle stretching makes me feel better physically.