you are supposed to feel bad right now... sleeping business hours,facing grief,feeling down everyone will do that if they were in your position.... perhaps its normal, eat something healthy... if you don't eat your body wont get what it needs and it will screw up your brain chemistry... being bipolar we just cant afford that... and you need to adjust your sleeping schedule to normal immediately... its another trigger for depression ...

i really hope my bipolar doesn't evolve... i always try to be in good mood... but it is continuous effort... effort not to think negative thoughts... sometimes my head hurts... but, what will be will be.... if only we could do something about it... its funny how much helpless we are sometimes... and call your pdoc immediately... when depressed we tend to postpone things...