Wednesday morning.

Haven't seen or spoken to son since he moved out Saturday.

Since I am now at home full-time (since I got fired again the day after Thanksgiving), I am not seeing people during the day. Or the night.

I do have a social event planned for this Saturday, but it's with superficial friends. People I would like to know better, but never make that connection. I see them maybe twice a month, and on Facebook, and that's it.

Last night, I wasn't sure if I would be able to sleep when I went to bed because of the big nap I had late afternoon/early evening. But I did it. I went back to sleep without a sleeping pill. Had really weird dreams. But the dreams probably tell a lot.

I dreamed that all of the houses on my tiny street were picked up and moved to the other side of the street. So I had a different view from every window and a different backyard. Things were supposedly the same inside my house, but they were not. My bedroomw as different. My bedroom windows were lower and there were more of them, so that I looked out onto a sidewalk that was right next to my house, but in real life there is no sidewalk there if my house were to be picked up and put on the other side of the street.

So things are supposed to be the same inside my house, but they are different, even though my entire world was picked up and moved across the street.

I don't think I need a dream analyst to figure that one out for me.

Why do people wake up in the mornings? What's the point of being up by a certain time, and then back in bed by a certain time?

I guess I should fight this by making myself a daily schedule and sticking to it.

However, I can't even make myself stick to the To Do List that I have created.

I've followed the advice of several people here on the forum and made my daily list smaller. I pull a few things out of the big to do list so I can focus on a few smaller things.

Still, it's like I am a rebellious teen, telling myself I won't do the things on my list. The only person I am hurting is myself.

My unemployment will run out in a few weeks, and then I will be in big trouble if I haven't done the things on my list to get some clients for my small biz.

Sorry. I'm just babbling at this point. Woke up with a headache AGAIN. Must be stress. I've had this headache off and on for several days.