i think i would be a completely different person if i would've had a secure attachment to my mother. I think I could still be a completely different person if I experienced this with my T. I think its possible with T if i'd let it happen. But it sounds so painful and risky. When you are a child you have your mother everyday. You have her security everyday. If theres a rupture she's always available to work it out. You dont have to wait days and days and weeks to straighten it all out. With therapy its sooooo drawn out. You have to wait days and days to talk. And even the good parts of it are so few and far between. It makes me so angry just to think about it. Angry because I know I want and need it but it causes so much inner discomfort, longing, needing, and chaos.