..the air around me for months now has become very personal like it's a part of me there is no differentiation between me and it...cos the body heat is about exactly the same as the day and the night heat from this Australian summer experience.

I turn my pillow a thousand times every time displaced sleepless night in hopeless efforts to find the 'cool' side of the pillow and then it's a discovery of supreme magnitude until 3 seconds later the 'cool' side of the pillow becomes hotter than my overheated head slipping awkwardly upon my greasy shoulders attached to my sweating wet baked body like I may as well be in a freaking spa!

...and there's a movement in the kaleidoscope moon shimmers ...in my eyeball!...sinister creepy!...cockroach another damn FAST insect to crawl over me unless I destroy it only to be replenished by new troops upon it's dispatch!

and what to make of this 700 dollar power bill?...and I'm getting fat in places even the medication can't reach...something that only the beer I drink the soup ale from the alcohol Gods!

my lawn dies before my eyes and I'm not even looking...the stench of unfortunate little creatures that didn't make it haunt the sidewalk...
poor baby birds leap to their deaths out of nests much better not...onto sidewalks way too hot!

the thing that trips me the most is the cold tap in my shower delivers water that is hotter than the hot tap!...

I turn on the hot tap to cool the shower down!??

it's all very hard to regulate...welcome to bipolar