Back from another AA mtg to remember not to drink
but I just want to drink to passing out and not come to.
No, I'm not suicidal ...
just so tired of my empty life, with my soulmate cat even gone from it.
There is no one IRL. I'm not feeling sorry for me. I'm only empty, numb, a balloon wearing a mask, floating through this existence.

Drinking to passing out and not coming to.

I asked for a new sponsor.