..now thats something I guess?

I don't know?...maybe I'm really losing my mind?

after all this time maybe It's really happening
I seriously cannot recall the last time I felt complete for more than 20 seconds...such a long time now...20 seconds ...and the last time I reached it!

I complete simple tasks only after extra-ordinary thought and planning...I think thats what normal people call worry.. insist on doing.. I insist on avoiding accidently!

and yet I continue to worry

and my brain is just not equipped to be concerned with worldy affairs barely capable of personal affairs...

I know there is something unique...not particular but unique to myself

I just cannot remember it...stuck in the legal system of this society for so long has beaten me down...I cannot even remember what I didn't do!

like who does during an episode?...and they drag me along

I'm desperately trying to feel accountable for something when it was nothing and after nearly a year I can't feel anything!

and what a shame it's pretty much everything now

(NTR)

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