Dear Sailaway,

You actions show GROWTH on your part....you are taking steps....telling your therapist, calling your therapist when you had just eaten, posting here, trying to eat normally when out with friends, these are all signs of growth...what about a support group so you can see face to face people instead of cyberspace people? Many people do it just because they 'can..' they may be able to share what helped them get over doing it just because they can. It's a paradox it seems.Post again and let us know how you are...we care about you...