Simon:
Have you ever thought about going to Alonon? It is a support system for family members of alcoholics. I also have two alcoholic parents and have been were you are. IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT> remember that, they chose to drink and that has nothing to do with you. The feelings you are having are normal however, I have been were you are. If you want to talk, feel free to pm me. The negative things you are saying do not sound at all like what I have heard when you post here, you are a good and worthy person who had nothing to do with the poor choices that your parents made, I hope that your day gets better and just know that PC is a great place to unload all the bad feelings