Hi Jegsu,
You may not know it,but this is
deadly serious if you do not do something
to change. Your problem is absence of any
self-esteem,and no wonder you get depressed,letting people walk all over you!
That is not a judgmental statement,
because I was like you,and it is a terrible
"non-life" and so humiliating and degrading. I used to be (unconsciously)
into "Pleasing Behavior" because I did not get any love or affection as a child;
so we in effect,we make the rest of the
world into parents,and try to get them to
like us by this pleasing behavior,which
leads others to treat us like dirt.

I have made vast improvements over the
last couple of years,through lifting my
self-esteem,and having the courage to
stand UP for myself.
If you would like
further info on the subject,message me,
I'll help all I can.
Deepest Respect,
BLUEDOVE