What more is there to say? I'm going down, and I can't find an emergency brake to pull. My psychiatrist decreased a med almost 2 weeks ago, so I'm going to go back to the original dosage, but that's not the likely cause. I'm alone... ugh I just want it to end.

But my thoughts are similar to med-problem thoughts... maybe that's all it is...

I feel so overwhelmed and alone - that much is certain, I AM overwhelmed and alone, whether my hopelessness is acurately-based or not.

I wish I could sleep this off...