Ok, so I am getting sick and tired of every doctor telling me something different. Why can't they diagnose me with something so I can figure out myself with medications and care for that diagnoses. I have been jumping around diagnoses for over four years now and I am sick of it!

Every since I was very, very young, I have been hearing voices. I have four different voices (The Teacher, the young innocent girl, the older protective male, and the Gossip Girls). The Teacher I have been hearing since I can remember and the voices have progressively gotten worse. I will not only hear the Teacher now but the Gossip Girls who talk down to me and tell me to kill myself. It is terrifying. The other two voices I only hear when I am in deep deep psychosis.

I am also plagued with horrible paranoia. It is awful! There is always someone watching me, with me. It changes everything about myself, how I dress, how I walk, how I eat, even how I breathe because I am scared they will attack me and hurt me if I don't. The list of stuff like this continues on forever and never seems to end or go away.

Doctors are too afraid to diagnose me with anything major (schizophrenia) because they are scared it will ruin my life. I highly doubt that and also they say I am too "normal". Since when does that call changes to a diagnosis. It is what it is!

I just want to figure out a diagnoses because it will help me when I need med changes or when I switch doctors because I will be able to tell them what I have so they can jump right in rather then having to do it all over again.

What do y'all think!? I need some help!