Dear hester91,

There is a time in all of our lives that we must look at ourselves in the mirror and evaluate who we see. If we look ourselves in the eye and truly behold what we are, then healing and growth can begin. Our nature of being removes the choice of letting our emotions 'bleed' to others. We can fight this by identifying our own conscious tension and work out this negative energy within us. Dare I say that the only emotion we ever feel is our own. One main reason we let others emotion 'contaminate' our own is because we care, be it a negative or positive caring. You have the strength and power to face yourself. You have the ability to overcome the forthcoming's that you allow yourself. If we humans feel our spouse is supportive, loving, and great for us, then they are feeling negative emotions based on our own actions. Don't quit meditating, it is very healthy.
As far as this cat's cradle you have weaved for yourself, remember what makes you happy, remove negative influences, and have courage in the face of fear especially within yourself. I have a feeling that you may question your purpose here on a deep level, you are smart, look into yourself and your spirituality to find that purpose. Positive emotion will come from positive action.

Love,
JD