Christina
I am just seeing your thread, and while I am coming on after you were able to get help from your T, I still want to send out lots of hugs. You are always so positive, that I think you are allowed an occasional pity party. I don't think I could handle the pain you experience with such grace.
Complain away whenever you need to we are here to listen and care-hopefully that helps a little bit.
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