My non-prescribing T says that I probably have suffered from PTSD since childhood. Later in my life, I was repeatedly treated badly at several jobs and in places where I volunteered. I must have LOSER written on me somewhere. I then developed C-PTSD from trying to hold on to jobs where I was ostracized and treated badly for being gay or just for fun. (This is what happens when you work for attorneys.) I have a lot of C-PTSD thoughts about getting even or being persecuted by former friends. They recur repeatedly during the day, especially when I am alone at home or taking long walks. Meditation and prayer have not helped at all. Neither has exercise. The thoughts also strike when I try to go to sleep. It seems to be getting worse. So, wine is not the solution. I went on an eating binge to keep myself occupied during the holidays but gained weight and my bad cholesterol and triglycerides spiked. I am ready to try meds. My T says I should change careers. At my age - 55 - I have no idea what to do and don't know if I am up to it.