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((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

I am sorry that you are feeling so crappy today..... I do not know the story behind this guy and you so I cannot really reply to it, but I do understand the wondering if any thing is wrong part. Please know that we are here for you.


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What happened, is that one of my 5 personalities came out when I started to take the mania medicine a week ago. It was the second evening I took it. I was doing my usual spending the night for keeping company with my boyfriend, (since July 24 this year) Anyway, he has always know me predictably and that evening because the medicine was not a thing I understood, I had a cosmic reaction to it.

First of all it make me wide awake, when normally I rest great in the evening. Secondly it caused my other personality (the impulsive mind reading, mystical one to come out, (this only comes out maybe once in 4 years, well it reared it full head)

Thirdly, there was no impulse control of "IT" what so ever. I was watching myself, and knew the whole time, it would not stop, and could do nothing to stop it from speaking and behaving.

Fourthly, it is a mystic, fortune-teller, (I am normally a Christian and keep other interests to myself about anything like hearing the "Spirits." But not knowing the cosmic reaction to the Limictal, there was no way to know that would surface, much less to gain any real mature behavior, such as leaving his home, immediately. In other words, I lost my mind, (to him literally,) to me, I experienced the "other person," but had no way to stop her behavior at all. I did not find myself dangerous, but I am sure boundery crossing can be considered dangerous to a intimate friend that really doesn't know you and has accepted your normal etticate.

It happened about 2 Fridays ago and Lar just processed it and I believe has a right to make the decisions he choses without explanation. I did try to explain to him, I would not do that again, but to no avail. Despite his acting aggreable and kind, I see that he is not real comfortable being in his home or anywhere with me. I feel great pain, knowing if it were not for me being around him that Friday night, things would be entirely completly not the same.

So, I feel disturbed, because I am rejected by his knowledge and non acceptance of this behavior. I know in my heart it is a shame. Man I am sad.

I even bought breakfast over there this morning from McDees but he was home, yet would not answer the door. Man I am feeling crappy. I am so mad for this event to have happened.

Love Robin Razeljenny I feel like crap I feel so so so so so so so rotten. I can hardly get my other obligations taken care of, and feel weighted down so heavily. I feel ashamed of myself.

My theripist wasn't even there for the appointment and I needed to talk so much to her at mental health. I am so exasperated and so down. Gosh I am feeling bad. I want to go back around but know it is against the law to do it because it can be called stalking, especially if he has kept his door closed and not answered the telephone for almost two days. I did drive by and it seems he is living his life, comming and going but he dosen't want me around. I thought it was going to be so so different.

I reallly feel so so so so bad bad bad. I feel like ripping up paper and throwing dishes and throwing rocks and breaking some stuff. I don't feel like injuring anyone or thing but I am so so upset. I feel stinky.

I had to be reminded to take my new medicine from my girl friend at school, named Laren. Help