Things are getting deeper in therapy, which is painful but a good thing. Unfortunately, though at school I'm learning more about the committee I have to meet with. I don't like this. It should be private, and I shouldn't have to talk about such things with strangers. I also feel betrayed by the supposed friend who shared the email with her supervisor, even after I apologized and explained that I was both triggered and had taken medication so had no recollection of writing it. This replicates aspects of trauma I've been through where betrayal was a serious factor. It's really difficult to even be in class with and pretend that nothing is wrong. For a while I was so hypervigilant that I felt like I was going to turn a corner at school and be attacked. I'm starting to calm down a little, but it's still not easy. And this process will drag out because of the committee meeting, which won't be until March. I don't like feeling judged by one single email that I didn't even know I had written. It's skewing the whole way people see me and feels really unfair.