I'm so sorry you've had to go through that!! I understand your hurt thoroughly!! Ive been married for 20 yrs, as we speak. The grounds for calling it quits was discussed early on in the begining of dating, 21 yrs ago... His guilt was eating at him, and he crossed that line, because he knew it would be done. I feel like the last 21 yrs was a lie. All of that and more, still just cuts sooo deep!! Hurts too much for words.... I'm here if you need a shoulder!! Hugs!!