I learned a few days ago, there is a meeting with lawyers in a few weeks. I haven't talked to him in 1 & 1/2 yrs. I have seen him only twice...he couldn't look me in the face!! I'm not sure how I'm going to handle this!!! Part of me wants to scream and yell at him, another part wants to punch his lights out, do a head kick and knock him out, tell him I want to talk, just sit and cry, but, what I really want to do is be calm, cool, collected and pretend I'm the happiest I've ever been- even though it's the most hurt I've ever been!! I don't think it's a good thing for him to know how much this is consuming me!! Because it isn't bothering him!
We are supposed to see if we can come to an agreement on a settlement, although, all I want is the excersize equipment and what belongs to me and my mother. He admitted that he has no means to buy me out!! His only concern, after he hit me (knowing it was over,when he did it), "this is all gonna crash" .... I would like to tell him....this is what you wanted...you'd better find a way to buy me out!!! I've compromised this entire relationship, why am I supposed to do it now?? This is me finally looking out for just me...but I know it won't look good on me!!