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honeybee777 · Feb 07, 2013, 03:28 AM

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Originally Posted by Grace Claire

Hi honeybee, I had an epiphany! I was thinking about your question. And then I thought to myself that I was diagnosed w/HPD years ago, and of course I have wondered if I still have the disorder. Well, another thought emanated from the thoughts associated w/that. Did I ever have it? Everyone falls for their therapist, right? (Not everyone, but many many). So, yes, I did fall for my therapist, really hard. I did everything in my power to get his attention. I dressed provocatively, I used my sweetest voice, my nicest smile, all to talk about my obsession, which was him. Further, I talked about sex every session. I told him I loved him. I even asked him to have sex with me when I was completely frustrated. In the hospital, I flirted w/every sane man I could find. I was inappropriate w/a male nurse. I told my doctor in an attempt to make him jealous. He got the nurse fired for being inappropriate w/me. (I am so super sorry about that and did learn my lesson. I thought I was telling him in dr/patient confidence.) But do you see where this leads me? Of course I seem like I have HPD to him, but that is because I loved him. I am the worst when it comes to transference. I get it every time. If I had a female therapist, I would probably fall for her and think I was gay. So what do you think? Crazy? Or not?

Well, it is something to think about. I guess it doesn't matter. I am depressed today even though I have tried to feel better. TTYL honeybee. I hope you are well. -GC

Not crazy LOL, just definatley HPD, Ive falling for one girl, Joan Jett !!!!