Thanks for asking. I'm doing better today. Last night was really hard; the anxiety got really intense after I went to bed. My moods were swinging extraordinarily fast even by my standards, and I couldn't stop thinking of ways to kill myself to stop the anxiety, punish myself for feeling like that in the first place, etc. Which scared me even more because I'm pretty scared of death (I was raised to believe in hell, and while I don't really believe in hell anymore, I don't want to take that chance). I wasn't sure if I really wanted to, or if my mind was just trying to freak me out more. Now, I'm pretty sure that it was just obsessional anxiety, and that I wasn't in any danger.

So, overall I feel much better, but it got worse before I could get here.