I just want to send some of those friendly words wrapped around a big hug...I too know what is like to feel like you have no future, or that any future you might have will be bleak. I guess the way I cope mostly is to not think about the future...just live one day, sometimes one hour at a time. Sometimes that's all we can expect of ourselves. By the way, I like your tag line. Sometimes it does indeed take all the day's energy just to appear normal :-)