I think about this every day. I don't think it's cliche at all. It's a normal thing to want to go out into the world and do something or be something. And it's the worst feeling in the world to feel like you can't do that. I can never talk to the people around me about it because they simply can't handle it. So the only choice seems to be pretending that nothing is wrong...

The only thing that really keeps me going is the hope that I can do something with my life. I don't have any inspirational stories to go on or even proof that it's worth it. Hope is all I have. So I write down my problems to get them organized. This way they don't seem as ominous as when they are just floating around in my head. And I try as best as I can to try and find solutions. It's not easy but it's the only way I know to fix this.

I believe the only way is to replace the sadness and fear with ambition and drive to get out and be something.

I don't really have any answers. I just hope and dream and work everyday until I can get to where I want to be.