I know that I have issues
and I know that I make a mess of things
I try really hard not to show it
but it always comes out in the end

I'm not throwing a temper tantrum
nor am I on a self pity trip

I just give up.

I just can't let things go. It's more of a curse than anything else.
must be tiring for those around me.
so it's best just to ignore me.

I don't want to hold onto things. I really don't.
I know that my thought patterns are broken
and they just spin around in my head
looking for a resolution

But i am stuck now.