i know exactly how you feel. i was really afraid to tell my doctors about my purging. I knew it would help me in the long run. I am having alot of problems with my anorexia and bulimia right now. I havent eaten in at least two days, and I really want to tell my dietitian, but Im not sure if I should. Im really scared to tell her. Im scared that she might put me back in the Kartini clinic, or some other place. I just dont know what to do at this point. but Im really glad that I found this site. Because here I can talk to people that understand my problems and my fears. i really hope that we can become good internet pals. if you happen to read this post tonight, I just want to tell you that I will be on at like noon in Portland Oregon time. I hope to be able talk to you on here. talk to you later.