I don't know what I'm doing with my life. It's like I'm on a gerbil's wheel and just keep running around, going nowhere.

feel like life just passes me by. Had to get more antidep pills today and still feel embarrassed every time I go get them (I went really late at night so there would be few pple around). I feel ashamed that I am depressed. Today my Dr. said he could excuse me from 1 of the jobs I just signed myself up for - he made me doubt whether I could do it... I do feel I can't cope with anything right now. And I am ALWAYS so alone - live alone, walk alone, watch t.v. alone. isolate myself, but am also REALLY alone... Will this ever stop?!! this pain? this loneliness?