Sometimes I just gotta feel all the sadness and depression until some point comes where I start seeing solutions... how are you doing today? Selfish or not, having your son move out is a loss you're dealing with, most moms I know tell me, "oh good your son is almost 18 and then you can kick him out!" I have no intentions of that ... no one else could ever love him more than I do! I will go to the ends of the earth for that boy. Anyway point is you're in pain and it's more than understandable.