Today is like a turning point, I don't think it's going to be okay. I should have logged out much earlier cuz all i'm doing now is creating drama and taking advantage of your kindness. I don't mean to be doing that. but right now, there's no right thing to do. So i stayed on here cuz it's supposed to be my safe place. i don't know where else to go today. I already blew off everything I was supposed ot do. not fair to my wife who is going to come home to find I have done nothing. it's not okay. not today. not tomorrow. Something is wrong with me.