I know I'm schizoaffective since birth, but voices got really bad when I began to use and later after 8 yr of sobriety they never left. Some wisenhemer has watched me for 23yr. My mom says it's big brother. I just hate trying to distinguish between actual auditory hallucinations and stupid heads trying to share their unneeded opinions at me that I can't understand half the time anyways.

I know this sounds weird but honest to god how can you explain my family knowing things that I've thought only in my head and than later on them being rude enough to shove that thought right back at me vocally. I even get it from the public. I hate myself even more because I feel attacked and it's easier knowing someday it'll end when I do.