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I am glad you have someone who can vouge for how this particular drug can have this side effect. I am sorry you have to go through all of this. If anything as you find your way through it, it will always be something you can tap on if you get to the place where you are with a patient that is challenged in a similar way.

Pay attention to everything you feel, self observing is very important, then do some "healing self talk" with every step you take through this experience.

I hope everything works out well for you, all experiences are things we work through then add to our repetour for helping others, especially in the field you want to be involved in.