I doubt everything in the relationship is your fault. Especially if he treats you this way. A husband should not have his fists in his wife's face and intimidate you. You right to get upset if he is texting women and cheating on you have a right to be upset. I'm sure you married him and expected it to be a monogamous relationship. You have the right to be happy and not to be intimidated by your spouse. People have disagreements and arguments, but there is a limit to what a person should do. Do you have family you can stay with when he gets like this? Do you have means to provide for yourself and children? I hope you find a way to get into a better place or find a way to reach him and tell him you won't let him intimidate you.