Thank you. All three of you for listening. I feel so lost at times and so alone even though I have the best partner a person could ask for. But she doesn't understand the emotional pain that I go through day in and day out. I don't know if I am going to be as high as a kite or lower than a deep abyss in the ocean. I wish I could cry. You know how frustrating it is to want to cry and have no tears come? I am so d*** tired of this illness. I...humph. I don't know what else to say right now. I'm just lost and becoming scared. I am tired of the ups and downs. I am tired of not knowing what my day is going to be like emotionally. Thanks for listening.