First of all I hate my therapist. And today I had just had a HUGE fight with my mom before I went in. But as soon as I saw my T, it was "big smiles and happiness"... And I sooooo close to convincing her that I didn't need therapy anymore.
Then it fell apart. She asked my mom to come in so I could tell her that therapy wasn't needed anymore. But of course my mom was still pissed off from our fight. So she started getting bad and that made me mad and then she was crying and blah blah blah...
So now not only do I need to go to therapy for myself, now I have to go in with my ***beep*** of a mother. And my therapist also wants to tell my mom about my other personality. And I did NOT want her to tell my mom. My mom would FREAK out and probably put me in a mental hospital.

So just to rap things up, I felt worse coming out of therapy then I did going in. I actually wanted to kill myself after I left there. But I won't.

I hate therapy and I never want to go back. I think that therapist has traumatized me even more than my rapist did. And she ruined my relationship with my mom more than it already was.

So now I really have no parents... I know my life isn't as bad as some people's... But I really can't live like this..... I WAS DOING PERFECTLY FINE UNTIL MY T CAME IN THE PICTURE!!!

Talk about a rough day... And all this happened after I found out my kidneys might be failing and I could possible be dying....

YAY! -.- I'm so alone :'(

I would very much appreciate advice or just a comment saying hi... I feel less alone when I'm on PC. I feel more hear. Less broken.