This is also how my life goes: "I get all hyped up and then I want out." I've actually just finished an "all hyped up" and am smack in the middle of an "I want out." So I feel for you. It sucks, especially because you are the cause of your own stress/anxiety. Although I know it's hard, I think what Venus said is important to remember: You don't owe anybody anything. If you're overwhelmed, say so . And don't do anything that makes you overly uncomfortable. You're in charge! Best of luck to you!