I had a total emotional breakdown in 1994 and spent 2-3 times in psych wards. I have an excellent therapist who has stood by me for all these years. She has taught me much about my PTSD and various coping strategies.
I also get very depressed and anxious. I am low income and live in a stressful environment of crime, drugs, fights, etc. At times I am so stressed living here that I get triggered about past issues and become dysfunctional, confused, scared, and just want to hide in my apt in my bed. This accomplishes nothing, but I am so triggered I am literally unable to pull myself out of hole of terror that I am in. I thought I had done so well and come a long way, but I'm a mess again and I'm disappointed in myself and am in tears most of the time. It is amazing that triggers can come out of the blue when you are least expecting them, and they knock you to the floor. This trigger is especially hard on me and I just don't have much fight left in me.