I'm at this point where I have no ambition or dreams anymore. It's like I've finished everything I wanted to do... and it's not like anything I have tried so far has turned out even remotely successful... that's the problem, I guess. Not only have I tried these things, they turned out horribly... so really why look for new things to do, since it will likely just end up as a failure anyway?

It's scary not having some kind of goal in mind. Like I said earlier, if I don't have an active goal I'll make one up, even if it's a really unhealthy, destructive one... But this is a new kind of low I guess, or a different kind of low at least. It's a weird mix of depression and panicking over not knowing what to do/not having something to work towards.