I've just read some of your other posts about his anger issues that you wrote about in Dec.

I understand that you want to start a family, and that you may think that this man is your husband and that you love him. But can you honestly, hand on heart, say that you feel loved, cherished? I think I know the answer. Please please do not have children with this man. He's violent, selfish and I think he's a first class manipulator. You deserve better than this.

I guess that you won't want to hear this, as with the other posts. Good luck with whatever you do, and I wish you well. I just hope that one day you see him for what he is.