I was raised strict Christian, and I kept those beliefs for the first 15 years of my life. Then, I began to question and doubt them, becoming an agnostic for three years. At 18, I converted back to Christianity, mostly out of fear that I'd go to hell if I didn't.

Since September, I've been having some problems falling asleep, so I spend time thinking about philosophical questions. One night, it hit me: how can I worship a God who condemns the majority of His creation to hell? How could I call such a God good?

I mean nothing against Christians. My entire family is Christian, and I love them dearly. If your Christian faith brings you comfort, that is a wonderful thing. I'm not trying to start a religious debate here.

I'm just trying to describe the world view that I have been developing over the past several months.

So, this is what I believe now:

-We have no free will. This is obvious to me. Everything has a cause, including our thoughts and behavior. Because of this, there is no personal responsibility.

-Because everything, including behavior, is caused by many factors outside a person's control, we can be accepting of everyone, regardless of what s/he has done in the past. We also can be forgiving of ourselves.

-panpsychism-i.e. everything is mind. Everything, not just the human brain, is conscious on some level. I know this because I've had telepathic conversations with "inanimate" objects. Furthermore, what is harder to believe: that something physical (the brain) can magically give rise to something psychological (the mind), or that everything is mental already?

-There is no "self" and "other". You can slice and dice reality however you please, i.e. draw boundaries of an object in any way.

-Thoughts are the result of "psychological collisions" in which bits of consciousness collide with one another and exchange energy.

-since everything is mind, there is no physical world. It is an illusion.

-After death, consciousness is maintained, but the illusion of a "self" is broken.

-there are an infinite number of alternate universes, and every conceivable event has/will occur in some area of the multiverse.

So, that's what I believe now. What do you all think of it? It needs to be refined a bit, but it makes a lot of sense to me.