You have made progress by finding this forum and asking for help. It IS a long battle as I personally know. But having others that understand to talk to really does help. We won't belittle you in any way; after all we're also trying to work our way thru similar things. Sometimes it feels like it will never end, but then you have a few good days, and you decide to keep fighting it. I am alone most of the time, and I think it would be so helpful to just have a trusted person to sit with me and be near me during the hard times. There is something so healing about getting a sincere, loving hug of support. Even if you can't actually feel it, right now you are being hugged by lots of people on this forum. Try to find a caring therapist that can teach you coping skills thru the hard times.
Something that has helped me enormously is having a pet. They love you unconditionally and are wonderful to snuggle with.
Keep writing to us.