I like it Secretum. But I do believe we have free will. At the same time bad situations happen to people. So free will combined with social factors out of our control. I enjoy pondering illusions, reality, multiverses. I'm baptized Catholic and do have an adoration for Christ teachings, and Mother Mary who to me is the Goddess hidden safely yet honored during the patriarchal shift. And I've learned much from other teachings/religions too. I think it's great to break it down and take with you what feels true to you, like you're doing.