I don't have any advice, or anything but wanted to let you know I read your post... (if ok).

I don't know, there is also a PTSD forum one and a Survivors of Abuse forum here on PC, that maybe there could also be some helpful answers you could investigate?

I hope this helps you...(of course I don't post on this forum a lot, so I bet there is someone who can help you here too...! )

Welcome to PC.