Please see a therapist and pschyciatrist to listen to your problems, you are not dumb, just going through what alot of people go through, especially people here, no one will judge you you are a better person for coming out and asking for help, which is one thing that i wish i had done when i was your age, well i tried but i didn't stick with it. just the fact that your here is a huge step in getting better.you're not alone, your not on a piti pot you just need help and you have reached out for it which is courageous.