I understand. I used to be extreemly paranoid about people. I really felt that "behind every smile hides a bold faced lie", and that "people=*****". It's such a toxic feeling. I don't let it bother me anymore... because its pointless. Even if a negative perception is correct about a person. If you are quite sure they have bad intentions then all you can do is steer yourself away from harms way. I've found that most people are harmless... even if they are a-holes. They only have power over you if you allow it. Sort of like negativity. It's only an emotion that arises from the mind. It's not a tangible thing. You can control it. You are an intelligent person. You can do what you want! It's difficult but do-able! I'm 1000% happier nowadays. It all began when I decided to take control of my mind. So many of the things plauging me before were completely delusional and irrational. I havn't just changed my reality, I've corrected my perception. I'm still working on it, and probably will for the rest of my life. But thats fine, I want to live a healthy life, and I'm going to.