Son has court today. He's already showered and seems like he'll go willingly this time. I'm only a bit nervous because they will likely remove his ankle monitor, and I just have some worry in me that he'll relapse with the meth or heroin again once he's "free".

I'm trying to think positive but also have that logical worry. He has been seeing his therapist, and he's been testing clean for the past 2 weeks (they allow thc). He's got straight A's in highschool so far, through the boarding school freshman year and the independant studies now. Last year I think he only attended about 10 days, so many stays at the psych and ER.

He sometimes takes his meds - lithium & trileptal. I'm not pushy about it because that was horrible for our relationship and led to violence and really bad places. I think our trust and relationship are what needs to be strongest.

Parenting is so hard!!!!! Anyway, wish us luck!