Hi everyone and wow thanks for all your replies!

DJ - yes its all too much to cope with. Just been to my doc and gave her a sheet of paper with all my symptoms over the last two weeks, it helped to do this as some of it was pretty personal to me. The upshot is she wants to up the dose of Depakote to 300mg three times a day from 200mg three times a day. I am staying on Zoloft 50mg.

I asked then about lithium but because I had hypomania she said they don't prescribe lithium because of side effects and only for more severe cases of bipolar. So I don't know what to make of it all but have accepted the higher dose for now and see how I go. Yes I have crashed into depression again and she agreed the symptoms are very similar to the first episode. I forgot to ask about any other meds though. Just felt like please give me something now to help me!

Exercise - ahhh been feeling panicky about going out the door for some weeks now, its really tough going. She has given me some valium for a week to help me sleep at night, have had racing heartbeat back again as well. I will certainly try to get out a bit more even just to walk round the block.

Suzy - yes am hoping that therapy will help with the stress and find new ways to cope - my therapist is away next week though just when I need him the most!

Thanks again all for your kindness and understanding.