You express as sense of hoplessness and helplessness that sound very much like depression. I am so sorry for the difficulties and pain your present situation is causing you. Its even harder when you have no support system in place.


Sam2 has provided you with some excellant insight and advise. Don't think I can do any better. If you are able to just connect with just one social agency, I think you will find that they will provide all kinds of information and forms for services that are suited to your situation. Services that you need and are likely eliglible. A Shelter can provide this for your as well. Their advise is free and useful.

I also caution you to be mindful of the digital footprints you leave on your computer. Please know that your situation is not permanent. There is hope. There are alternatives.

Hugs to both you and your little one!