**Hugs** Ouch
I sure know how that gerbils wheel goes! I have felt like that for years too. Except for my husband and daughter that is still at home, I too have no outside interests. It's all I can do to go to work at my p/t job. I feel like I don't measure up to everyone else. Sometimes I just feel abnormal, ya know?
I just keep tryin and some days are better than others.
Just know that ppl here understand and are praying for you.