Attacking/criticizing myself.

Putting on the happy face. Got so bad I became physically ill.

Asking for help from others is definately in there.

Feeling misunderstood but not understanding myself either.

Feelings of shame that I was 'broken'.

Losing my sense of humor.

Being unable to think clearly.

Waiting for it to change/get better.

Loneliness.

Being perfectly fine with the idea of my life ending in a flash.