i think what started this was when i first discovered a mass of nude photos which somehow escalated into occasional porn watching. Recently I have gotten a filter but since I have access to the addon it is easy for me to just log in and change the settings. Plus I also think that someone out there might be cursing me because I seem to want to quit the habit when I'm thinking clearly.
a lot of times I allow myself to just get behind my room and start doing things privately so as to avoid punishment.
Now I just don't feel that at all. i mean, i recently spoke with a psychotherapist about this matter and he said that when he was a kid, he used to hang around guys who watched a lot of porn and when I heard about it, I wasn't surprised. I mean, I'm pretty sure there are some guys my age that are doing this privately as well. I even heard from a friend of mine who recommended that I check out a porn star online. I was a little shocked, but then i realized that we're teenagers and many of us make tons of mistakes before we can clean up our act.